I stared at me, and me stared back.
At that point in time, I had lost track.
My blues eyes looked empty, a void of emotion,
My life was going through erosion.
As the wind and rain break down the Earth,
That’s how I felt.
Slowly being beaten down by every hiccup in life, every heart break, every bad decision.
I attracted the ones with the least precision.
They didn’t rip my heart out, they didn’t care that much.
The only thing they had was my pussy in clutch.
I was too blind, too dumb to see that the reason they were there wasn’t for me.
I was a husk of a human, no emotion, no tears,
And it was then that I realized, that this was my fear.
I needed to be loved, I needed to be held.
But what happened was, I got de-shelled.
I was a husk of a human, no emotions, no fears,
But the damage? To recoup? It would take years.
All I wanted was to be cared for, was to be looked after,
All I got were the high school boys’ heckling laughter.